Hello World,
Are we good? Do you feel I have delivered? Trust me, if we have had an interaction, small or big during this flashback journey, or I haven't mentioned something yet, don't worry I haven't forgot. I never forget. I just haven't talked about it.
You all have been amazing, I have to unblock gamers and re-add some of them, over this journey I lost a lot of relationships because of this, the lashing out I would do started resulting in me finding the smallest reason to cut friends, it wasn't personal, in fact its more to protect the friendship, its usually easier to block people out for a while and ask for forgiveness, than it is for them to see the worst of me and try to explain, I had to show all the gamers this twice too, I know I had doubters, and I still love you for helping me.
If I helped you, it was genuine, from art work, to concepts, donations and even just making you laugh. I was tested and given boundaries, I donated a green screen to Gov, donated bitties to a few other streamers to watch them react, so I could feel how it feels to watch me, I bought off wishlist for a person or two, made emojis, a backdrop, explained wiring set-ups, if my life was aired like the Truman show, then it is out there somewhere.
I hold no ill will, unless you were some of the scammer scum, lets ask the scammers that see this a question, who feels scammed now? Be better, even I see them coming. I can show that too if needed and let the authorities track ip addresses to make examples of that behavior, but I don't think the world needs to go to that extent. Were they real or a test? Doesn't matter to me.
I bet they are either real people squirming in their chairs right now, or the world believed me from day 1, and everything I have done was a test? Like I said I see black and white on a lot of things driven by principle to process and speed up my decision making, is it Occam's razor that says the most obvious answer against two competing sets of principles is usually the easiest.
All of you look at the date of when that was established and tell me how long autism has been around? I think it is further evidence how people with disabilities have contributed over time. Even Albert Einstein had problems doing the basic things. I don't care if my socks match all the time, if I am lost in thought, I just throw on whatever and go for a walk. You will see different versions of me walking. I remember the car commercials with who I said to put in it, and I told everyone at the facilities that those commercials were for me. Did you really do that? I thought I dreamed that because every time I said that EVERYONE looked at me like I was crazy, so I did have doubts, but I kept looking for ALL of the signs that I asked for and knew what they were. If you ask me how, I can probably rip off some memories about it. Its not that I forgot, its more like that starts my brain to start looking for that specific memory.
I make typos but I fix them when I get back to cleaning up the page. I save the changes all the time so you could even watch the changes I make and when I make them. If my life really was broadcast to the world then I can only imagine the expressions on your faces and what you are feeling right now, but I'd like to think of this is as that moment that we all talked about. I really don't want her in jail, the police have been involved since Day 1 of this, and I made a LOT of promises. I am making jokes, because I know my family is chuckling a little bit. Please respect my family's privacy. I had to ask my father to be the enforcer again to make this work, he didn't hit me, but he had to say some pretty mean things to help trigger the anger. He has only done what has been in my best interest since him and I started sitting down for burgers and planning this. He knew I could deliver this. My Brother had to make a hard decision too. My sister was deceived. Please make sure they have the space needed to heal.
I am really curious as to what to expect next from this, and I am excited to see the reactions and hear how this unfolded from the world's perspective. This image is me and Maddie at the new house, where I lived right under her nose the entire time. It is a two minute drive from her house all this time. I can describe more reactions of hers, but I don't want to do that this time. I really am at peace.
Remember, now you know what everyone else knows about me, and you know I know you know.
Thank you,
Mikey