Hello World,
I have some news for you. This will be my last blog post and I am officially ending "Project Go Time." I will be keeping this site up forever as well and will be doing some minor tasks like improving the SEO for each blog post, as well as a few other house keeping things. All of my emails, old phone number, and socials will remain "active" but I won't be using them, except to answer questions. If you wish to stay in touch or have questions, feel free to reach out and I will let you know how to find me. I do have two phones now, one associated with "Coach RAGE" and one with a new number and email that no one gets except for my inner circle. Think of it as public life versus private life.
I feel there is nothing else left to say about my abusers that I have not already said. They made their decisions and I have made mine. I do believe in second chances and best possible outcomes so she is still free to apologize, but since her word means nothing, she can say sorry with the remaining $180,000. The only person welcome back into my life once the head abuser dies is my Father. My Brother and Sister will be welcome back once they have proven to me they have improved their character to the point that they know how to treat people appropriately.
I look at "Coach RAGE" as a character the same as Mike Meyers has multiple characters on SNL, I ask that anyone reading or listening to this to do the same. After all I can act and voice act! I purposely acted the way I did online to draw out my abusers, embarrass them, and enrage them. The last memory they will ever have of me, unless they rise to my expectations, is "Coach RAGE." They will never see the real me and how I conduct myself out in public and with the ones I trust.
Ever since I confronted my abusers in 2012 and warned them that if they chose to continue treating me the way they were, that when I reappeared that I would hold them accountable. I gave them nine years of second chances. The straw that broke the camels back was the main abuser wanting to sabotage my court house marriage. She started pushing the buttons weeks prior and insisted on coming to the courthouse. I knew what she was up to and I was praying she would have said something in front of the judge, because at that point I would have laid this all out in front of the judge right then and have a witness.
I told her at every step what I was going to do to include creating this website and blog. The one thing I didn't tell her is that I would be using "Coach RAGE" and streaming myself live to the world. That was left out because that was my main tactic; public humiliation and frustration. Everything else I did she challenged me to do it and would even make comments like "No one will believe you" or "why couldn't you (me) die already." All she had to do was acknowledge her wrong doing and apologize, but narcissist are not capable of that unless it benefits them, and she was too blinded by evil to see that I had forgiven them all a long time ago.
I have had comments about my "process" in creating my blog posts. I would like for everyone reading or listening to this to "zoom" out to the big picture. This all started with me confronting them in person multiple times, then a family group text, then family group emails, then outing her on Facebook, then the stream, then the blog. This blog started off with smaller posts with Ai photos and each section of posts I have improved something. If you are still zoomed out you will see the escalating improvement of the blog posts. All of this was done by design. I don't mind showing the world my mistakes, to include misspelled words, paragraphs that don't flow right, and well any other mistake that might humble me. They are mistakes, we all make them and I don't care what people say about me so I don't mind showing them. If you are the type of person who judges people on grammar you are either an English teacher, asshole, or both.
I have reached out to one of the non-profits that had my back from the start of this and we are trying to work together. They focus on suicide prevention and mental health. They have HUGE events with public speakers across Idaho, Utah, and Arizona. I am hoping I will be able to start a public speaking career with them but not talking about my abuse, rather about the importance to believe people when they come forward with stories, especially children. As well as the warning signs of abuse, and ways you can help someone if they are in a situation like mine.
Once again, if you have questions feel free to reach out and ask them, I am always happy to answer them. I want to thank the Boise PD, the Ada County Sheriff's office for protecting me when I was completely vulnerable to the world. Once jackass is tried and hopefully sent to prison I can close out the last page of my "dissociative EMDR" experience.
I have this feeling that there are some who don't want to talk to me about my experience because they feel it might enable me to do this again if I need to. I will be clear about this right now, I would do ALL of this again in a heart beat if I had to, with the exception of two changes
As far as gaming, I will always be a gamer, but I am back to the private life of that as well.
Sincerely,
Mikey