Hello World,
I am HAPPY. The past four years I knew the therapy I was doing was going to work because I would challenge people on things and they would either act surprised I was cognitive or tell me "oh nothing." I emailed people at Christmas of 2023 that I knew it worked and I was back. For those that are new I was conducting incredibly intensive EMDR on myself and then would recover for months after each session.
I told the authorities to pick me up in July of 24 and take me on my last hold which was an audit of St. Alphonsus in Boise. I chose them to be the last facility to audit and rest at because I have had previous encounters with them and they were always doing the right things and looking for ways to improve. I am happy to announce that as a patient I found ZERO issues with them. Their staff, security, treatment, were all amazing. I do not know what Disability Right's Idaho found (they were there at the same time).
The sad part about being so happy now is that it has cost me the relationships with the ones I love most. My father still supports me but had to chose his wife over me. I told my brother at Christmas of 2023 that there is more and to sit tight, but he was already scared of me at Christmas and I doubt he believes any of this was planned even though the Boise PD, Ada County Sheriff's, the Mayor of Boise, and the Chief of Meridian PD were all involved in this process. Since my brother has threatened to call the police on me over a hug before, and since he kicked me to the curb since Christmas, I reported him to the A.T.F. for breaking multiple federal firearms laws. What he is doing is so inappropriate that I had to report him because he has done nothing but interfere in my life and try to tell me my Coach Rage character, my jokes, my behavior were all inappropriate over the years.
As far as my sister goes, she had to learn a lesson too. I reported her to a school principal I know and he said they would take steps to protect my niece's from her inappropriate behavior as well. My mother is also my abuser & she tried to murder me as a young child. I told her it would cost $200,000 to settle this if she wanted forgiveness. To date I have seen $20,000 show up. I also told her if she wants this family in the same room together then she will have to publicly apologize for her inappropriate behavior and take responsibility for her actions. She told me she isn't capable of doing that.
I have also got my advocacy platform up and running. I sit at my desk and advocate my ass off on X by engaging with people, sending links, and well its starting to grow a little. Part of my advocacy work is to stream myself playing video games. For the most part I am really chill and happy when I play. I crack jokes, I make people laugh, we have friendly banter going back and forth and I tell people in every lobby I am in to go to my website and learn about civil rights and mental illness. If you want to see me laughing and happy feel free to watch the stream.
I had to handle my recovery, moving, the stress of someone showing up at my house armed to the teeth to end my life, the embarrassment of how my Borderline Presented the past four years, loss of friends and family, trying to give each member of my family the chance to get to know the real me, as well as countless other issues that arose the past four years. This stress almost killed me, but we are all stronger than we think we are, and I knew I could do this when I had my vision years ago. All of this was planned because I saw a much bigger picture years ago and took the right steps to take care of myself. I asked for help, created a plan, and showed the world my vulnerabilities. If you are struggling, reach out, don't give up. My whole life I had to persevere, it sucks, but it makes you stronger with each challenge. Don't give up.
I am HAPPY to be happy again. I have reclaimed my life and identity. For those who know me as Mike, Mikey, Michael, Coach, Rage, Coach RAGE, or anything else, feel free to call me any of the above. When I game I step into the persona of Coach Rage, when I am not gaming, I am just me.
Thank you,
Mikey