Hello World,
One thing I love to do is socialize, I am actually great at working a room. Let me clean up and get in a tuxedo and you got a persona of me that get women to take their panties off right there. True story. I bring this up because over the years I have been friends with so many different people, that one thing you all got in common is Mikey, and it would be such a fun idea to take those that know Mikey, those that know Mike, and put them in the same room and let them share stories. As egotistical as this idea sounds, it would actually be a lot of fun for me to watch facial reactions.
About a decade ago a group of Veteran friends threw a party of the decade in Quantico, Virginia, in a neighborhood where every house but the one we were at all worked for one of the many different three letter agencies, I'm talking the Boob Inspectors, the James Bond fucks, A.T.F., D.O.J, you get the idea. A lot of our Veteran gaming community flew in or drove from across the nation because I was coming out from Idaho. Fuck did we have a blast, and they accepted me, they knew I served, but they used to think I didn't know I was aware of my disabilities, and when they all realized it, it was one of the coolest moments on their faces.
Anyways, given my time with the Shriners I paid attention to the one thing they did well, and that was fundraise. It would be awesome if anyone out there who actually is in the business and has the means to throw a party like this reach out to me. We charge $50 to $100 a plate, you pay the cost upfront, so you will know how many seats you have to fill to make a profit, but small fundraisers like that, with the idea of bringing people together from all walks of life, and then use the money to do some philanthropic work through my Coach Rage name. Its just an idea right now, maybe one day I will execute it and invite the world to a party to fucking remember.
The police got called on our party at Virginia and we invited them in. We were a group of Veterans from all branches, most combat vets, and just people who supported the military. We don't know which bitch neighbor called, but the party was so much fun the cops even asked if they could come back when they got off duty.
I have been happy for a long time as Mikey, and will always be happy now that I don't have to live the double life anymore. What a weight off my shoulders. It really sucked having to hide that part of me from my family out of fear, had we sat down sooner and had those hard talks, this situation still would have happened, but my Brother, Father & I would of had a lot more time together the way we all have wanted this whole time. We just never talked about it. Have those hard talks, the one thing I want most is more time so I can make memories with them, I can't go back in time, so I want to make the best out of what we all got left. I still see a happy ending in such a shitty moment, and I wish others had this ability to see the world the way I do, it would make it easier. I can talk to people with Autism and Veterans who both won't speak to their families, but I can't speak to the family I want to speak to.
This is a picture of me camping in the Boise National Forest, and the band around my brain is a unique tool. It is offered by Stephen Ammann, he is one of the worlds leading experts on EMDR and happens to live here in Nampa, Idaho. His protege did my first round of EMDR therapy and then I learned to do it myself. They taught me a lot about healing the brain! This band reads the brainwaves and runs that signal through software on a tablet that plays the brainwaves back to you through headphones and translates the signal to musical instruments. This was one of the more critical tools I used early into my recovery. It was created by a physicist who was attacked and suffered TBI and trauma, and wanted to heal himself. He came up with this concept and the rest is history. Look up "Cereset"
For the record, I don't consider myself disabled. I know society does, but what I lack in decorum and "appropriateness" I make it up with intelligence. I am just different, I am a neurodivergent person, this is why people with Autism can speak to each other and know what we mean and the others look at us like... what just happened. HAHA.
Family holidays are a hard time for me, more flashbacks. I am crying writing this one, but as I said, this has gotten so much easier to do.
I hope this one finds them.
Thank you,
Mikey