Hello World,
Prepare to cry. I am going to take a walk around the block after this one. If you feel this one, please reach out on social media or my phone and give me a sign of affirmation. I feel their pain right now and I am balling my eyes out. We all had a moment at Christmas, just the three of us, its not that I don't want to include my mother in those, its that I have to trust her to be honest with me like I have to trust anyone in my life to be honest with me. I think that is a fair statement for anyone to make. That is why this is so hard right now. They have been watching me build the blog step-by-step, typos and grammatical mistakes (which I always go clean up), and when my father left my house in February the day I got home from the hospital, she offered money and I said I just wanted her to publicly acknowledge this. It really could have been that simple, or I really could just back down right now, but she antagonized me the day I got home about it. My father and brother have both known this was going to happen again. I feel bad, but I have to feel justice.
I have been clear about what I think justice is, and that is own it. I have full faith that even if the DA doesn't press charges, that what my brother said, verifies my claim of events. That is why I can move on. This isn't a game to me. It has never been a game, this is has been my life and I am not complaining by any means, but I think any reasonable human being would feel the same way I do about this if my claims are true. I really don't know the process from here, its just a waiting game, and that sucks because now this is what keeps a family that wants to heal from healing. The irony there. I was clear every time I have put myself in front of the world about how I feel. I really do wonder what Hollywood will pay for this when its proven to be true? Maybe I am wrong though, maybe my Brother didn't, either way it doesn't matter any more.
I am over 300 unique visitors and counting today. I know the world is listening and I know people are thinking on this, or going what the fuck? No fucking way, and Im like WAY. I told you how my mind works, I told you I had this trick, and I told you this would happen. My Brother was shocked at Christmas when I told him I had it this thought out. Imagine if I could have spent my life focusing on something like fixing societal issues and becoming the Stephen Hawking of the psychology world with this giant brain of mine? As you can tell I read a lot of comic books when I was a kid, the craziest thing is, one of my Veteran friends loves comics and talks to me all the time about them we we are together, and I don't remember any of the comics I read, I only remember who I liked.
I have been waiting fucking years to ask my brother to fill that part of my life in just to end up right back in this moment over something so fucking stupid.
I am going to buy a lottery ticket, I am due for something! LOL. This is me and my Chocolate Lab, she is old and retired now but still a Daddy's Girl.
Thank you,
Mikey