I apologize for my two day hiatus. I have a lot to say and sometimes I need some space to think about how to articulate myself. On a different note my wife is out of town, its me and the animals, and each night the cat's have brought in at least one mouse. Its weird to have the house to myself, I have been working on chores and projects. I have also found a new game to play, "Gray Zone Warfare" and no its not for old people. Its a knock off of Tarkov but way better.
I do want to clear something up though. I have mentioned on stream and in blogs about me being inappropriate and my family not wanting me around. Well the part I want to make clear is they laugh at all sorts of inappropriate shit, do all sorts of inappropriate shit, and even laugh at or exploit my inappropriate jokes up until I cross the line that takes things too far. For me I am having fun. When they go to far with me its, "we are just having fun, quit being a baby." I remember the first time I kicked them out of my new house, they tried telling me how to act in my home.
Why are double standards okay? I bite my tongue about a lot of shit they say and do, but I am the inappropriate one. I know who was looking at what websites all the way from the 1990's through my time in the Marines when I would come home and use a computer. I could talk about how inappropriate what they all do behind each others backs, but to me that would make them not talk to each other, instead I want them to doubt each other, question themselves.
The last time I was at my Brother's was to watch Survivor. I would love to compete with my entire family, all of them on a show like that, I would physically and mentally dominate everything and then just watch them tear each other apart at the "family meeting." Its kind of what is happening right now in real life, I am immune to their bullshit (I really am, I am only blogging & streaming to raise awareness) and they are having to live with the shame and guilt that comes with what they did, all while the police have made contact and taken statements from them. I will outlast all of them, I will not relent, and its only been a month of me taking this position. I know they read this, and I know my abuser will take it out on my Dad, he needs to stand up for himself, I did.
Let me ask you this, which is more appropriate: An entire family to exile me for taking jokes too far, or covering up her abuse all these years and telling their friends and children that I'm a big "retard?"
I should hire someone to write me a biography about me.
Thank you,
Mikey