This heat wave sweeping the country sucks.
One thing I am good at doing is cutting ties to people. I have gotten so used to being taken advantage of, bullied, or just find someone to be not for me, that I have made it easy to cut the emotional connection to most people, romance is harder. It is easier to not care at all about them and mourn the loss of a relationship immediately, rather than to hold out thinking myself or people will change. We all are who we are and I am okay with things being what they are, it is what it is.
For me what this looks like is I block phone numbers, block people on social media, and filter my email to send any emails from someone I cut out of my life, straight to the trash so I don't even see them. I also change my paradigm to think of people I cut out in the passed tense (like they are dead) to help. I have heard of others with my disabilities going to these extremes as well, but it is what we need to do to remove someone.
I think I was a fucking moron for setting aside what my family did to me so we could pretend to have relationships as adults (it was all a lie from them), and I think I am a fucking moron now for thinking the bitch abuser will apologize, that my brother will apologize, that my father will quit alienating me, and that my sister, well fuck, just return what you borrowed from your "crazy retard" brother (she has always taken advantage of me when given the opportunity). Do normal people hold out hope that family will ever take the moral high road with them? Fuck it, they are all dead to me at this point, that is easier to say and feel, than it is to wait for the "non-crazy retards" to do the right thing.
Happy note is my therapist moved from Washington to the East Coast, and well with tele-health medicine, I am able to continue working with her! I just hope she doesn't decide to retire for a long while. I know how to block the bitch abusers IP address from visiting my site, I wanted to block just her devices, but I am going to have to block the IP address for their home. Shouldn't be a problem, my father has already alienated me for refusing to back down to her, so I doubt he will mind losing access to my blog.
Have you ever had to cut someone out of your life? What steps did you take? Let me know, email me at xlcoachlx@gmail.com
Thank you,
Mikey